May/060
Prom?
So I'm not going. I'm really disappointed because I didn't go last year.
And I was so gonna go, but Nisha's too OLD. He sucks. If he had been born earlier he could have taken me. So instead on Saturday he's taking me to the casino in Jackson. I'm going to gamble his money (he doesn't know it yet haha) and WIN. Then I'm forcing him to take me to Wing Stop, because I love that place. Then we are going to see “The Da Vinci Code”. I just got done reading the book and it was awesome! After that, depending on what time it is, I'm making him take me to Rock n Bowl. If it's still too early for that I'm going to make him take me to play pool until midnight. So yeah. I'm punishing him for being so old. I'm evil.
Senior trip sucked! Well, not entirely. It's all Matt's fault though! He gets so jealous when Gel pays more attention to me or something. So when we first got to California Adventure he was all moody and snappy. Pissed me off. It seemed like he was actually purposely trying to ruin our trip. Not cool.
By the time we got to Disney Land he was happier and things were fine until about 4AM. Matt decided to go souvineir shopping. Since Gel and I had already done our shopping we browsed for a bit and then sat outside on the curb waiting for him. He was taking forever though. So Gel decides to call him to see what's up. He didn't answer. Understandable considering he was in a noisy gift shop. So Gel continues to call him until he does. He finally answers and I guess he was really pissy on the phone and said he'd be out soon and hung up on her. So Gel decides to go to the bathroom and I just sat there, literally dozing off lol. Gel comes back and still no sign of Matt. I was getting fed up with waiting, seeing as time was getting closer to 5AM. So I decided to head toward the bus so I could nap a bit before people got there. BUT THEN I GOT LOST. I always get lost so we all knew that was coming LOL. Anyway I finally got to the bus and a few people were already there. Five minutes later Gel arrives alone. She said she called Matt three times. All three times he was pissed at her (we have no idea why!) and all three times he hung up on her. I guess he gave her “permission” to go to the bus without him. SO SHE DID. Half way to the bus she said that Matt called her. When she told him where she was apparently he was infuriated because he couldn't believe she left without him. Um, yeah. Didn't he just say that she could go to the bus without him? *blink*. If you don't mean it, don't say it! So Matt gets to the bus and starts pestering Gel about why she is mad at him. ERRRRR. I was thinking WHY DO YOU THINK SHE IS MAD AT YOU DUMBASS!? Finally after hearing Gel tell Matt to leave her alone and turn around (Me and Gel sat next to each other and Matt was in front of us) about twenty times I finally snapped. I pretty much told him to turn around and shut the fuck up because I was getting tired of hearing his annoying voice. He responds with a, “You can't tell me what to do! Stay the fuck out of our business!” I then responded by telling him that he also cannot tell me what to do and that if he wants me to stay out of his business to not talk about private matters six inches away from my face. I don't really remember if he said anything after this, but he turned around. The horrible bus ride home consisted of Matt listening to his iPod, sleeping and reading. Gel sleeping and staring off into space. And me trying not to sleep and listening to my iPod. We all hardly said a word to each other the whole ride back. God I absolutely despise Matt! He always finds some way to ruin everything. What really gets me is that Gel is already back to being all lovey dovey with him. It's just so annoying because he treats her like a piece of shit and she takes it with a grin on her face. I don't even know if I wrote about the whole Hawaii situation on here. But lets just say Matt got extremely jealous of Gel that she was going with me and actually wouldn't talk to her for like a week. Soon after he “forgave” her for wanting to go to Hawaii without him, he decided that he wanted to go with us. UM YEAH RIGHT. Hawaii was my birthday present and there is no way in hell he is going to ruin that for me. THANK GOD GOING TO HAWAII IS TOO EXPENSIVE. I seriously would have killed that boy if he had come along. He wasn't even invited and he just thinks its okay.
Matt has problems.
Anyway, my mom is yelling at me to go watch American Idol so I'm out!
May/060
birth control?
So I am officially on the pill. After my three hour long doctor visit yesterday, it was decided that I have “Polycystic Ovary Syndrome”. Ain't that exciting? If you have any desire to read more about it, go here: http://www.webmd.com/content/article/4/1680_51208
Anyway, the pill should regulate my periods which will in turn decrease my chances of getting ovarian cancer or uterarian (sp?) cancer in the future. People with PCOS are generally overweight and have acne (me!) because their metabolism works weird. So while on the pill I should lose weight and see an improvement in my complexion. People with PCOS have an increased chance of getting diabetes because they have such high insulin levels (or something..) and I believe the pill is supposed to help with that too.
Unfortunately, the damn pill has some side effects. Not all people experience these side effects, but of course, I get to be one of the few. Within the first few months of taking the pill, some people experience NAUSEA. This morning, I woke up and promptly emptied my stomach. Up until an hour ago I had been dry heaving. How lovely.
I don't know what I am going to do, because I can't miss SCHOOL every day so I can throw up! I don't understand why my body chooses to react to the pill this way. It could have reacted and done any of these: Headaches, Bloating, Bleeding between periods, and Breast tenderness.
Why couldn't I have gotten BLOATING? I mean really. I get the side effect that makes you feel as if you're going to die. The one that makes you lay in bed all day holding your stomach. And the one that makes your throat burn after you're done throwing up all your stomach acid.
The website says it takes your body a few months to get used to the hormones that are being put in it. Does this mean that every day I'm gonna wake up and get sick?? Or does it just mean sometimes… or does it mean that I might experience some of the other side effects too? I really hope I get breast tenderness tomorrow LOL.
May/060
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oh godddddness.
i'm fucking bored as hell.
and i can'tsleep.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
but i may go to a casino tomorrow and play blackjack.
i'm pretty excited about that.
i still have yet to get a tattoo.
and i wanna go and get something pierced. only problem is i can't.. because of damnnnn bk. i'm so quiting once i accumulate a lot of money. which should hopefully be in the beginning of july.
senior trip is next week.
graduation is in three (?) weeks.
this boring chapter of my life is finally ending.
hopefully college will bring me a plethora of friends and different people to hang out with.
hopefully i'll finally win the lottery so i can bum around 24/7 playing the sims and reading and watching degrassi.
that would be my ultimate bumming around fantasy. lol.
does any of my friends (yeah like all three of you lol) actually read this? you should comment and let me know, because i'm curious.