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why jessica needs at least 8 hours of sleep every single night:
1) has problems focusing and concentrating on what is going on
2) tends to daydream about bed a lot
3) gets really depressed
4) gets so self conscious (spelling?) to the point where it makes her want to cry
5) makes stupid mistakes

so i need sleep.
really badly.
i'm functioning on three hours of sleep every night since sunday.
which is twelve hours of sleep in four days..
when i should really be getting over 32 hours.
i'm so tired right now, that i can't tell that i'm tired anymore.

goddd and i have so much to do. i feel like i'm suffocating. today i went to school, then straight to work, i got home at 9:30, took a shower, attempted homework- but because of concentration problems it didn't happen. so i tried to sleep. but i couldn't.
i have SO SO SO SO MUCH TO DO!!!!
i have 30 million things for government to do by tuesday..
ch. 18 outline to do for environmental science due next week,
quiz tomorrow on N words in environmental science that i haven't even looked at yet,
pre-calc homework due on monday- which is going to take me FOREVER
and thats it actually.
but it's going to take me a lot of time to do all of it.
and tomorrow i have school and a lovely 8 hour shift at work. i don't get off till midnight so i'm going to come right home and SLEEP just to wake up and be at work by 1PM the next day. I work till nine on Saturday, then I have to go to my dads house and visit because I haven't been there in ages!! he has something planned on sunday but i don't know what it is yet. i have to get my math homework done sunday and TRY TO GET ALL OR SOME OF MY GOVERNMENT HOMEWORK DONE. then i have to do my outline that day for science.
*crys*
i hate having a job.
it gets so much in the way :[
because i did fine with balancing school work and free time monday through wednesday (i never work on those days). but thursdays, like today, i always feel like i'm having an anxiety attack thinking about all the stuff i have to do.
and not only that but i feel like i'm keeping a very big secret from the world
even my mom
and i don't like it ..
i feel like pulling a seth cohen..
LOL

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I just wanted to let you know. That myspace is working again.

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Ahhhhhh so I'm unhappy because whenever I try to login on myspace, it says there has been an unexpected error. ERRRR.

Today was awesome. I woke up at 6 (well that part kind of sucked) and studied for Environmental Science. Class started at 8… and ended at 9:55. The final in itself was fairly easy. The part that brought me down was the forty questions on the compounds. I still have a B in the class. Thank God. I need at least one good grade this semester- if you even want to call a B good. After that I went and talked to Mr. Meyers (work experience teacher). It looks like I'm going to get a C in his class. Bummerrrrrrrrr. It's my fault though because I missed so many of his classes. They're heckaaa early in the morning (6:55 eww) so a lot of the time I accidentally sleep in too late. I told him that and he moved me into his afternoon class which is awesome .

I picked up my new contact lenses today. They FINALLY came in!
I was home from school and the eye doctor by 10:30 at which time I decided to take a nap. I slept until 2:00. IT WAS SO NICE!! LOL. I had to work at 3:00 so I went there. My 8-hour shift went by reallllyyyyy fast. Normally the 3-11 shift is the sucky one because it almost always seems to go by so slow. But today we were amazingly busy. I collected on drive-thru most of the day. About two hours before the end of my shift I worked in the back… all by myself. Aissa taught me specialties in like- 5 minutes. And then left me there. Did I mention all alone?? LOL. That was only for ten minutes though because we got a MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR rush and um, there was no way I could ever ever everin three million years have ever ever ever handled it alone. Soooo then those two hours flew by and I came home! And here I am!! WOW!!

I can't believe I all I talked about was work and school. My life is so boring .
Nisha just texted me and told me that my drawer was off by one cent…
that is truely amazing. Especially coming from the girl that is currently failing her math class LOL.

Tomorrow I get to work again (2-10) and I'm just so excited. Can't you tell??
I'll probably come straight home from work and sleeeep.
Then Sunday??
I have no idea what I'm going to be doing.
After my strenuous three days of working, I'll probably feel like being a lazy bum and do nothing. Maybe I'll job hunt (I won't). Or maybe I'll start defining all the words that are on the Government review sheet (definitly won't).

you'll never take me alive

I am sooooooo not even tired.
Today I went to work. Got off at 11PM (ew). And that's pretty much it.
I am currently at my fathers house and listening to my iPod.
My dad might be taking me to see HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS! I dunno for sure though, but would be really cool of him if he did. It's the one on April 5th with All-American Rejects, Fall Out Boy, From First to Last and some other band.

Ahhhh goooodness I'm bored.
Why on earth is there absolutely nothing to do at midnight!?

For some reason the headphones that came with my iPod kill my ears. It's almost like I either have really small ears, or the headphones are really big. Either way I'm thinking I'm going to have to out and buy myself some new headphones. Which actually, now that I'm thinking about it, they aren't even really headphones. They're actually like.. earphones?? LOL. Uhmm yeah.
But I love my iPod. I already have 522 songs on it. My 4gb iPod can only hold about 1000 songs… so now I wish I hadn't asked for the “cat's meow” and instead asked for the 20gb iPod which holds a lottt of songs. But ohhh well. I'm sure I'll live.

Okay this updating my journal thing is beginning to bore me.
I'm off to go on myspace.
That might hold my attention for longer.
<3Jess

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Happy New Year!!

I haven't gone to bed yet…
I'm not tired!!!!!
I reallllly need to try though cause I wanna go shopping and get stuff done tomorrow and I won't be able to if I don't SLEEP.

But I decided that SceneIt is an awesome game.
Especially if you drink champagne(sp?) while playing it.
lol.

Okkkkkkay I think I'm going sleepy now bye bye.
<3

ahhhh
did i mention my throat is all scatchy and ewwwy.. yeahhh it is and it's all Gel's fault. Cause I drank some of her drink on Thursday and she had a COLD and I was being stupid and just not thinking at the time… and i woke up today and yeahhhhhhhhh. So hopefully tomorrow I shall wake up and my throat will be all better, but maybe not. Who knows.
I think my mom would be mad if she found out I was drinking champagne.
And then I drove home.
Uhhhhhhhhh, I'm still alive though.
So all is good I guess.

HAHAHA
I think my mom is waking up.
lol I haven't even gone to bed yettttttt
tehehehehehhe

ok ok bye for realllll now
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